[00:09:59 AM]
I haven't documented anything here in about...four days? Usually He speaks to me every night, sometimes every two nights. but four days of silence seems... strange.
Lord, isn’t it written that You will never abandon me?
Did I do something wrong? Have I displeased You somehow?
Forgive me, Lord.
[00:14:04 AM]
But I repented, didn't I? YOU showed me repentance. The marks on my arms, the pain, the visions that burned into my mind...
That torture… it couldn’t have been for nothing.
The silence is worse than the nightmares. At least when You spoke, I knew You were there. Now there’s just… emptiness. Static without meaning. Darkness without purpose.
Have You moved on to someone else? Someone worthier? Someone who didn’t try to run?
[00:20:44 AM]
Christ before me, Christ behind me,
Christ within me,
Christ beneath me,
Christ above me, Christ on my right,
Christ on my left, Christ when I lie down,
Christ when I sleep.
The silence is so loud it hurts.
Please come back.